When Was The Last Time You Did Something For The First Time?
Updated: Jan 16
"Let yourself go. Follow that feeling. Maybe something new is what you're needing." ~ Darius Rucker
Blogging is new to me. In fact, this is the first one I've ever written and I'm feeling a little nervous and excited about it. It's definitely time for something new in my life and since it's Spring in the northern hemisphere, where I live, it's time for my ideas to blossom.
There was a time when I was afraid to be myself and I never would have uploaded a public blog let alone post my name next to it. But I'm stronger now. I've been through some pretty serious Dark Nights of the Soul and come out less burdened and far less self-conscious. Through that, I've learned (and am still mastering) to let go, trying my best to go within and not meddle in other people's energy and I'm really diving deep into being as authentic as I can be. For me, that means actively considering how to express my personal truths, listen and follow my intuition, and most of all, be still and receptive. If I do that, then maybe I can share something useful and meaningful that I've learned and it will help someone else along the way... and maybe restoration and revelation will come to me a little faster.
I set the intention late in 2018 to discover and ground myself in authenticity when I found myself in the midst of a Spiritual Awakening - a whopper of a wake up call. My soul came forward in a strong way filling me with joy and intuition on a level I'd never experienced and didn't know could even happen. I also had to face a great many old issues and pains and learn to detach myself from my expectations. My solid foundation of faith began to expand into deeper discoveries of spirituality, the spiritual realms and getting better acquainted with the beings of light and love that reside there with God - those whom He instructs to interact with us and guide us. Meditation had become my daily norm. I began to see my early foundations of Sunday School and worship as a primer in the 3D (physical) life where I learned so much about morality, giving love and being bold in faith. But I was now launching into a 5D (spiritual) experience of my soul and spirit uniting and becoming whole. Trying to balance those two out manifested effects in the form of visions, prophetic dreams, telepathy and claircognizance (the ability for a person to acquire psychic knowledge without knowing how or why he or she knew it) that defied my sense logic but were still very real and undeniable. I was learning to receive love from myself and I now understood that I had never really allowed myself to be receptive enough to really appreciate the love given to me by others. Synchronicities became my everyday norm and I have become deeply aware that I am divinely guided at all times and never really alone. It's pretty cool! I feel empowered, grounded and connected to the still unraveling purpose for which God made me.
As I walked down this path divinely created for my own healing, I began to see, very clearly, trends of thought and conditioning that distort the views people have of themselves and those around them - a bent perspective of the dominant feminine or masculine gender energy they embody - and I realized what a disservice this has done for them and what a disservice it had done for me. I had bought into ideas that women fall prey to, like thinking I couldn't completely take care of myself alone, being overly critical of my appearance and thinking that sexuality was a way to hold power over men. I had seen men who had heeded the call that their emotions were a liability and it's better just to cut themselves off from their feelings and hold everyone at arms length. They believed themselves to be powerful because they could shout louder or bully someone into silence. Don't get me wrong - I'm not trying to criticize these folks who think and act this way or trying to berate myself. I think most people are completely unaware that they may be behaving in a way that will eventually be a problem, until one day it bites them in the rear. And it was the same for me when I realized that my passivity and skewed view of myself didn't work for my greatest and highest good. In fact, it was hurting me and holding me back. I needed a change of perspective and to change my way of living my life. Experts call these patterns the Distorted Masculine and Distorted Feminine and often the lessons worked on when stepping out of this distortion are in learning to set boundaries and being able to connect with your intuition and emotions in ways that are empowering, feeling your worth and stepping into the belief that you are worthy of being loved. It's a new way of strengthening yourself and it can only be achieved through a spiritual journey.
Paraphrased from an article on Shift.is: When masculine and feminine energies are working and dancing together in a harmonious way, they allow you to understand life better. When you acquire enough knowledge and experience to merge both of these energies in a harmonious way, it allows you to achieve true spiritual enlightenment, balance and intelligence. In this way, the Distorted Masculine and Feminine now become the Divine Masculine and Feminine energy. Learning how to balance the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine energies within ourselves (yes, we all embody both) is the key to spiritual enlightenment.
I'm not an expert in psychology, psychiatry or behavior and I don't pretend to be one. What I present in this blog is not intended to be a substitute for professional support and development and I don't accept money for any personal advice, because I'm not professionally certified to do so. I'm a laywoman, a seeker who felt divinely guided to put some information out there for those looking for on-line resources to shift out of behaviors and ways of being that don't serve you anymore. Personally, I'm not interested in putting forth my energy and effort toward anything that isn't meaningful and this blog is my effort to integrate my own Masculine and Feminine Energies to enjoy Balance, Fairness, Equality and Partnership within myself. There's a lot of freedom in that. You can't just hold on super tightly to life in an attempt to survive, pretend you have no feelings and call that love or living. It doesn't work that way.
If this resonates with you and you are eager to walk with me, then great. Be sure to check out my Resources page where I'll be posting various teachings, practices, meditations, thoughts and ideas from a wide variety of sources. I figure there's something to be gained from any source that's trying to be helpful and encouraging so don't be surprised to see postings there from different faiths and schools of thought. If you think I'm full of baloney, then thanks for stopping by and good luck in your search. Please don't take the time to send me scathing criticisms. I'm just presenting ideas here to feed your soul and ignite your journey and my own. Conscious, adult conversations are welcome - bashing of belief systems is not.
I should probably also note that I don't have a political agenda in starting this blog. I don't think men are ruining the planet because they act like men and I shudder to be called a feminist in the modern sense. I just want healing and wholeness for myself and for you. If you're looking for the same, then I'm grateful to God for bringing us together. These days I seek to keep life simple and straightforward, allowing my cup to flow over with unconditional love and respect. It's a constant effort of balancing and there's plenty of times I get thrown off. Fortunately I've learned a few new skills to help me stay on track and I'd love to share them with you, if you're interested. This blog is my calling that I couldn't put down and I'm eager to see where it leads me.
I started out my thoughts with some lyrics from a favorite country song by Darius Rucker so I'll close it out the same.... "Maybe something new is what you're needing, Like a real life. Let your hair down, Feel alive. When was the last time you did something for the first time?"
Shine On, dear friends. Try something new. I hope we learn good things here, together.
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